It seems as though I have come to a fork in the road on this journey called life. I will be finished with school in a couple of weeks and still have no idea what I am going to do afterwards. I could get a job like everyone else does when they finish school, but then again I’m not usually like everyone else. I’ve been looking for jobs off and on when I get a chance and I haven’t really found anything that has caught my eye.
The fact is I don’t know if I’m ready to join corporate America or if I even want to. Of course me working would help us to save for lots of things we will need in the future and will help us to live more comfortably and not just paycheck-to-paycheck, BUT we could get by without it (we have been now for a year!). I would love to travel and to volunteer or go on a mission trip, or go join an international graduate program, but those things just don’t seem feasible.
I have such a desire to help people that can't help themselves. I have such a desire to do something meaningful with the days I have here. I have such a desire to do something big in my life. I don’t want to look back in 10 years and see: get married, graduate college, and get a job. BLAH!!
Mike and I have been praying for some kind of insight into what God wants us to do with ourselves. There seem to be so many unknowns. If you would have asked me five years ago what I was going to do with my life I would have had it all planned out to the T, but not so much anymore. It’s like the opposite of that now. Am I going to work after college, if so doing what, and where? Am I going to volunteer and serve, if so how and where? Are we going to have children, biologically or adopted? There are so many things that are just so complicated right now! If anyone is actually reading this please pray for us and our fork in the road.
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Oh Kasey, I know you don't know me...but your post is so touching. I pray that the Lord gives you the desires of your heart...they sound so pure. I too was a big planner...I think God got a big kick out of me always "planning" like I knew what I was doing. The side of the fork you and your husband are on...His side of the fork is perfect. I think you happen to be exactly where He wants you and by just knowing that you don't actually know...well, it opens you up for sooo many wonderful, God glorifying opportunities. I pray His will for you both becomes clear. I love where you talk about it being "feasible"...all things are feasible with God, in fact, I think He shows up best in those situations which seem not to be feasible. Praying for you guys...love the new Christmas decor :)
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